Weight... a minute!

" Are you sure you grabbed the right size?" I say to myself while at target in the dressing room trying to pull up the jeans I was trying on. The things wont get past my butt. So I grabbed the other pair I brought in, and while they DO get past my butt thy are only about half way up my butt. So not wanting to, I look at the size... Are you kidding me!?!? And Low rise.... Who in their right mind ever thought us "bigger" girls needed low rise? I mean I dont want to go all "mom jean" and stuff but Low rise??? My butt is big, it already stands out. I dont need it to hang out too! Soo after finding a pair that covers my butt. I run as far away from the clothing section as humanly possible! I used to be skinny! I used to like clothes shopping... Not anymore! I need to lose weight! BAD! SOO with that said, my christmas gift to myself will be less food and more exersicing!! I am gonna join the local gym. Tomorrow I am going to buy workout clothes! I mean how long can you use the excuse " oh its baby fat"? My baby is 18 months old! I look like I am gonna have another baby... any day now. ACK!!! Now, time to get off my arse, off this computer and go for a walk!